purpleparadox: (Beth)
I've made a lot of new friends in the past 24 hours. Which is pretty awesome, I think. I have no problem with new friends! It gives me even more motivation to post more often.

I'm trying to think of the best way to introduce myself to the new people. I suppose directing everyone to the about me tag might work, even though there's some ridiculous old stuff under that tag too. But it's still who I was and who I am, so yeah. If anyone's uncomfortable with it, they can feel free to leave.

But anyway, yeah. Welcome to the insanity. Make yourself at home.

an updated about me, since the last 'about me' post was over a year ago )
purpleparadox: (Pikachu!)
I think I'm going to make an effort to post more. I should get my thoughts out more often, and put myself out there more often. No more hermit Bethie.

Got a lot done today. I am officially Beth Hoey, according to Social Security, the DMV, and my bank. Tomorrow, the college will recognize me as Beth Hoey, and that'll be just about all the places I need to change my name. I also opened up the boxed wedding presents we got (pots and pans, and a ton of Pyrex glassware), and cleaned up the kitchen, and started writing thank you notes. I also found out there was a living room underneath all the plastic bags, greeting cards, and flowers.

Now that we're back home, it feels like life as usual. I don't feel married. (Or maybe I've felt married for two years.) I end up surprised whenever I see my name as Beth Hoey anywhere. I have to re-learn how to sign my name! I screwed it up on one of the forms I filled out yesterday, and had to white it out and sign it again.

I don't want to go back to work tomorrow. I mean, I sort-of do, but I sort-of don't. I know it's going to be crazy with phone calls from people registering for fall non-credit classes, and I'm going to be so frustrated if my email's not working tomorrow. (Apparently CTS has been replacing a borked volume on the email servers, and not only are all my saved mails gone, half the time I can't even log in!) At least I can email people with the online registration email, even if it'll seem like people are getting emailed by a robot, until my mail is fixed - OH WAIT IT'S BACK. Thank god. I need my email for work!

I can't believe classes start in less than two weeks. The summer's flown by! Granted, there were some points where it felt like it was dragging (like from 2-4 pm every day), but in general, it's just shot right by. I never even got a chance to use my new tent. (I might see if I can find a relatively poop-free spot in Caroline's backyard when I petsit and set it up there, or ask Kit if I can camp out in her yard) When the school year starts, it's going to be crazy. 12 credit hours of classes, 30 hours of work at CLEAR, and 9 hours of work at the computer lab. If I'm not dead by the second week of school, or if I don't have a direct IV of coffee inserted into me, I'll be damn surprised.
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It still has the same effect - too much, not enough, still a zombie. I'm nursing a cup of french espresso roast coffee in hopes that the possibility of extra caffeine will wake me up.

I think Bryan's expecting me to microwave breakfast. I dunno. He's sitting at the other side of the kitchen table, looking at his computer all cute and sleepily. I wish I could read what goes on inside his head. I bet you it's something like "lol internet" or something like that, to be honest, but you never know.

I am very frustrated with one of my co-workers. She's a temp, she only comes in three days a week, and when I went to go do her morning duties since she wasn't here, I noticed that not only had she not checked the phone messages since last Thursday (!!), she also did absolutely nothing on Monday. I mean, it felt like I did nothing on Monday, but I actually got a lot of filing and data entry done. Filing just seems like I get nothing done because the actual folders are such a mess, and I keep having to correct the other student assistant's mistakes. It frustrates the everloving crap out of me. But finding out that the temp did nothing, when she actually had work to do? (She had a batch or two of credit cards to run - usually we don't run them unless there's at least 5, and there's 10 sitting in one folder and another folder's got at least 4) And finding voicemails from LAST THURSDAY? Ugh. I'm just a graduate assistant, but if I were higher up, I would say something. But I can't. And it frustrates me.

Anyway. I should find something to eat, or take a shower, or both - not necessarily at the same time. Guh. Do I have to be awake?
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Luzerne again tomorrow. YES. Two weekends out of this town? YESSS. Four day weekend? I COULD DIE OMG

So, Bryan started his new job yesterday - working as a wine seller for the Thousand Islands winery. I told him to buy me a bottle of North Country Red - he gets a 30% discount. It really makes no sense for me to go to the Potsdam Farmers Market, go to the wine booth, and give Bryan money that's technically already his, haha. Only thing that sucks about it (for both of us) is that he gets home from one farmers market at 10 pm (it's a late one that's two hours away), and then has to leave for the next one at 4:30 am! I saw him for maybe an hour last night before I fell asleep, and he left before I rolled out of bed at 6. Oh well, he can have a nice big nap when he gets home!

I had two strange dreams last night. I guess sleep deprivation does that do you. Anyway, the first dream was that apparently I'd had a baby. (For those of you who don't know me too well, I am absolutely terrified of childbirth and what it will do to my body - I already have issues with my body, I don't need more. I also don't think I'd be a very fit mother - I'm a great babysitter, but then, I don't have to be the parent and it's only for a few hours.) Bryan and I were trying to figure out how to take care of it. It had curly red hair, which could entirely happen, because Bryan's part Irish. It was a cute baby, I guess, but still. Yeeep. I commend all you mothers out there who have had children, and hope you don't hate me too much because I don't want kids of my own. (Maybe when I'm a little more stable I'll be a foster parent!) But anyway, back to the dream. Bryan actually tried to breastfeed the baby. XD I looked and him and said "No, you're doin' it wrong," and took the baby and fed her myself. That's the last part I remember.

Dream number two was infinitely less scary. Mom got me a HUGE Keurig coffee maker, a red one to match my tiny one! Apparently Bry, Ruthie, and I were all at Mom's, and Ruthie thought Mom got it for both of us. We both tore into the box and started reading the instruction manual, which was really complicated, and Ruthie's planning what coffees we'll make. I tell Bryan we can give my little Keurig to his dad, and he said "Let's not worry about that now." Then Mom comes in and tells Ruthie that the coffee maker is just for me, and she runs off crying. Oh lordy.

Wedding planning is going along well. My co-worker, Brittany, brought me some Precious Moments stuff she used for her wedding! Which is nice, since it matches our wedding invitations. If Bryan's parents were going to be up north for the weekend, I'd bring it all with me so Kathy could see. She'd love it! Brittany gave me a few helium balloons, a cake topper, a little banner, and a whole bunch of bubble stuff bottles. She also gave me a set of the napkins she used - they had cute little Precious Moments designs on them. :D I am amazed at how well this wedding is going, and how little we're having to spend on it. So far, all Bryan and I have spent on it is $90 for my dress. The ceremony site is free, I think the Mayor will marry us for free, Bry's parents are paying for the reception, we're getting inexpensive rings with the promise that someday we'll upgrade them, and Bryan's wearing his suit for the wedding. And getting him to wear a purple shirt and tie to match the wedding color will be no problem at all, because he has a million purple shirts and at least three purple ties. XD I think that's why we picked it. In fact, when I was suggesting wedding colors to him, I even said "Purple like your shirts!" XD I think this weekend will be spent cranking out wedding ideas and stuff. I'm half tempted to bring my printer with me so I can actually get some stuff printed out. We'll see.

Anyhow, I should get on with my morning internet browsing, since I have to get ready for work eventually. I'll see if I can bring my laptop and leech wireless from someplace, otherwise I'll try and post on my phone. :D
purpleparadox: (Pikachu!)
Sorry I've dropped off the face of the internets the past few days - Tuesday morning I spent fighting with my damn game for Multimedia Development, and yesterday I went to work out. But it's Thursday, and here I am with a giant coffee in my hand and some Lady GaGa downloading. I finally gave up and figured, what the hell, her songs get stuck in my head enough as it is, why the hell not just get her albums?

Anyway, I'm absolutely exhausted. I've been running around constantly the past few days. Monday we drove to Massena to go get some fishies for my late birthday present. One came home dead, so last night we returned it and got two more. My house is now a friggin aquarium. There are more fish here than people. Do I have to make tags for all my fishykids? Artemis has her own tag. I think Augustus, Metella, and Rufilla would be very sad if I didn't give them tags, yanno? (Oh my lord, Beth, they're fish. They don't care if you have tags. Drink your coffee.) I've noticed they all have their own personalities, too. Artemis is just Artemis, being cute and silly and sometimes doing ridiculous stuff, like sleeping in the handle of the Greek vase in her tank. Gus is calm, cool, collected, and loves to come to the glass when I talk. He's a very social fish. He's also one of the most spoiled male bettas I've ever seen, he's got five gallons all to himself! (Then again, right now Artemis has 20 gallons to herself. XD) Rufilla is a little smaller, and Metella was picking on her in the bag on the way home, and she reminds me of a line that her namesake had in my Cambridge Latin 2 book - "You don't understand! You don't care!" Nobody understands what it's like to be a tiny blue betta, heheh. Metella's also named after a Cambridge Latin character, from book 1 - she acts like she's the boss, and Metella in the books was the lady of the household, so there we go.

Oh my lord I am explaining the reasoning behind what I named my fish and their personalities. I am a crazy fish lady.

Anyway, two days of babysitting left and then it's the weekend. I had Tyler and Brittany yesterday, since she was sick. I felt so bad for her, she looked really out of it and miserable. Hope she's feeling better today.

Can I go back to bed?
purpleparadox: (@_@)
I've just been so energyless this week. The only thing that's keeping me going is copious amounts of coffee. Mmm, coffee.

At least I have a break before Web Development tonight, hopefully. (Knowing my luck, Brenda won't get home until closer to five, and I'll only have an hour and a half until class to just sit and be mindless) I have so much stuff that needs doing around the apartment, but the past few mornings I've been downright braindead. I haven't really wanted to do much of anything. The living room is a wreck, the kitchen is a wreck, there's a giant nasty dirty fish tank in the middle of my bathroom... yeah. I need a day to sleep in, take a nap, and just relax. Part of me is really hoping Brenda will call in a few minutes saying "oh, there's an opening at daycare for the afternoon! we don't need you today!" Oh, that'd be lovely. It'd be hell on my paycheck, but I've just been so dead lately.

In other news, I'm going to do some reading up on Buddhism. I've always been fascinated by different religions, and deep down inside there's a part of me that hopes I find one that fits me someday. I bought two books on Buddhism off Amazon as an early birthday present to myself (9 days until my birthday! O_o), and hopefully I'll find them interesting.

*zones out for a few moments, then snaps back to attention* Oh geez. I need more coffee. I think I'll finish this entry up before I start gibbering nonsensically.
purpleparadox: (Coffee-head)
Seriously, it's SNOWING outside right now. The weight of the snow collapsed my tent. And is putting a damper on my plans to take Tyler outside for an "expedition". Gaaar. I hate you, Mother Nature. It's too close to my birthday for it to snow!

Yesterday was spent alternately cleaning a fish tank and organizing the living room. I had the day off from babysitting (thank god), so I managed to make a little dent in the mess. Tonight I've got class, though, and I'm pretty sure that when 7 pm rolls around I'm just going to hurry back home, set myself in front of the computer, and mutter about how nasty the weather is.

Oh, I'm jumping on the bandwagon a day late here, but Three Weeks For Dreamwidth! Going to post every day for three weeks, because I love Dreamwidth. I may buy a Dreamwidth coffee mug. I love coffee. I need to drink more coffee. It's too early in the morning.
purpleparadox: (boop)
Ugh. Work in three or so hours. Not ready for this.

I'm back home from Long Island (somewhat obviously, if I'm complaining about work, haha). We left at 1 am Sunday morning, got home at 9 am. Managed to beat all the traffic. Bryan said he wanted to leave that early so he'd have a day to recover at home and get stuff done - all he did was sleep, haha. I wanted to, since I didn't manage to sleep much in the car, but I think I'd hit my second third fourth wind, and I didn't actually fall asleep until bedtime. I'm still ridiculously tired. Maybe a shower will wake me up- breakfast and coffee sure didn't, and it's a little too cold out to go take a walk.

Finally got around to installing Semagic on this computer. Let's see if it'll break my habit of always going to the web to post! Plus, I won't have to go look up what I'm actually listening to - I can just hit a button. In my half-awake state, this pleases me muchly. *pushes button* Ooo, I am listening to Parov Stelar. Awesome.

Anyway. Babysitting. Yeah. I bought Tyler a little coloring book with dinosaur stickers in it while I was gone, hopefully he likes it. Hopefully it'll keep him occupied. :D Worst comes to worst, we watch movies and play with cars all day. I should pack my construction paper and a glue stick, maybe we'll make some construction paper stuff today. I dunno. The day is full of possibilities.

Guh. I have to go close my HSBC account sometime today, too. Not sure if I want to do that before or after work. If I could close it online, that'd be nice. I've been feeling really...hm, not sure how to describe it. It's like all the neuroses I have that I hate are coming to the surface, like the social anxiety, the OCDness, stuff like that. No depression or anything, which is weird. Usually depression is the cause of all this crap. It's very strange not wanting to deal with people and being in a perfectly happy mood.

Oh well! Never said I was normal, did I?
purpleparadox: (Amy Pond)
Hello everyone! :D

I'm down on Long Island with Bryan and his family. I hadn't been here in a year, and it's nice to see that not much has changed. The dog remembered me (and didn't eat me!), and everything's good.

We went shopping yesterday and today. Yesterday I went a little crazy and bought all sorts of pretty things - I got a new pair of shoes, two pairs of socks (one with an argyle print and hearts on it, the other with a coffee cup print), an Alice doll from the Disney store (she's so soft and cuddly), a Tinkerbell metal water bottle, some hair bows, and a new wallet. Today I bought some underwear (how exciting) and Bryan repaid some of his debt to me by buying me this OMG AMAZING Keurig Mini one cup coffee maker. I've been wanting one for ages, and now I have one, and it matches our mixer, haha. (It's a pretty red color.) We're going to be awash in K-Cups when we get home - they had a special deal where if you register your coffee maker online and bought two large boxes of K-Cups, you can get two boxes free. So I took advantage of that. We're going to have a million of the little things shortly after we get back from Long Island. I don't think I'm going to buy any more coffee makers ever again, haha.

I think I might be becoming slightly obsessive-compulsive about things. Weird stuff. I mean, I've always been a little weird about my security blankets, like how I hate it when people sit on them and have to tell them to get off my blanket, or if they fall in a dusty hole and get gross I have to wash them, or when I get really iffy about people touching my stuff. (I am very territorial, to the point where it irritates me if someone starts going through my stuff without my permission. Somehow, Bryan hasn't aroused that irritation yet - I think he understands about me being territorial and is nice like that.) Now, I have a new weirdness! Apparently when I eat candy or pretzel rods or anything like that which isn't pre-packaged and pre-proportioned, I have to eat an even number of said item. I don't know why. I don't care what the serving size is. I have to eat an even number. I get iffy if I don't. So what if the serving size for pretzel rods is 7? I will only take and eat six.

Anyhow, Brentwood is nice. It's very nice to get out of the north country. There's actually stuff to do here! :D

Bryan has his head resting on my knee. He's watching me type. OMG WATCHING ME TYPE.

I SEE WHAT YOU DO THERE [personal profile] nomnomchuupie.

(yeah, I'm a little silly tonight)

Also, the wedding date? May need to be changed. Cue me trying not to rip my hair out. AAAGH.


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