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I've been quiet lately, I know. I spent the weekend in Lake George, and purposely didn't bring my laptop, so that explains this weekend's absence. I've been reading everyone's entries, but haven't really had much to talk about.

I've re-discovered my love for Dream Theater. They're a prog-rock band that Justin introduced me to back when we were dating, back in 2001. We got to see them twice in concert, and I really love their stuff. I fell out of the habit of listening to them when they took a turn towards the metal side, and I wasn't a huge fan of metal back then... Now, my tastes have changed, and I'm rediscovering them and remembering old favorite songs, and it's awesome.

I get very frustrated when the girls from the sorority I was in call me directly and ask me to cover their shifts at the computer lab. They expect me to take their shifts because I'm a 'sister'. I don't want to work for them because I literally can't (I'm working 40 hours a week for the college, and I can't work any more), and I don't want to work for them on principle - they ONLY talk to me when they need something, and usually it's covering one of their shifts. Just because I'm working at Levitt doesn't mean it's my only job, and I can't drop everything to work your shift. Plan better, and post to the damn email list. It's there for a reason - so you can find someone to cover your shift.

I'm bordering on the edge of wanting to hide for no reason. Yesterday afternoon, all I did was curl up in bed and watch Bones for 5 hours. I'd like to do that tonight, but I have to go to yoga. I'll feel better after yoga.
purpleparadox: (Oooooo.)
Got out of class early, which is wonderful. My friend Janel drove me home, and I changed into comfy clothes and poured myself a glass of wine. :) It's good stuff, the green apple gewurztraminer I bought a million bottles of. Good occasional stress reliever, too. Mmm, apples.

Anyway! Class today was more of "I know this already, why am I here? Oh, to prove that I actually do know this". I ended up working on my portfolio during classes, to be honest. I did what the professor took an entire class time to explain and put it up on my website twice. (He had us convert Powerpoint presentations to a web friendly format.) If you'd like to take a look at my piddly portfolio, head here. My newest stuff is under Presentations, and there's some stuff under Video too that I put up today.

Work is good. I managed to get ALL MY FILING DONE OMG. It was an epic undertaking, but there was honestly nothing else left to do, so off I went.

Discovered Lily Allen's music lately. I'm kinda addicted. XD

Tomorrow is my long day. Much like longcat, long day is long. Not looking forward to it much, but oh well, what can you do?
purpleparadox: (Hiding)
I don't know if anyone else does this, but I've noticed I listen to different music during the spring and summer than I do in the fall and winter. Maybe I'm the only one who does this. I dunno. But I don't mind.

During the spring and summer, I tend to listen to really upbeat stuff. Electric Light Orchestra, Daft Punk, Justice, lots of classic rock, even some pop music. I don't usually listen to the radio often, but during the summer sometimes a pop song will get itself stuck in my head and it won't leave. Summer is when the really eclectic stuff in my playlist comes out to play. Pop, dance music, classic rock, anime soundtrack songs... yeah. The random stuff comes out and annoys Bryan a lot, haha.

In the fall and winter, the other stuff comes out. Tori Amos, Ayreon, Goldfrapp, Parov Stelar, Mono, Bitter:Sweet, and Ladytron. I tend to go through phases when I listen to only one album over and over again. A few years ago, all I listened to all winter long was Tori. Winter 08'/'09, I listened to Ayreon's Into the Electric Castle from the start of the first snow until the ice started to melt, five straight months. I tend to listen to more depressing stuff, more serious stuff. Maybe it's because of the seasonal depression, maybe it's just because it fits the season better.

It's strange how eclectic and random my summer musical tastes are in comparison to my fall and winter ones. In summer, I might listen to one song on repeat for an hour and then go peruse my playlist, while in winter I'll listen to one album straight through, then another, then another, and then listen to a specific album for a week straight.

I wonder what that says about me. Does it make me two completely different people, at least musically? If you listed all these tastes separately, the summer and the winter, it would look like it was two different people's music tastes.

Then again, essentially I am two different people. During the summer, I'm enthusiastic, exuberant, almost manic. I want to be out there in the sun, I want to run around until I'm exhausted and it's dark out and the dew is falling. I want to go swimming, I want to go wander through downtown Lake George, I want to bike in the woods and I want to look at the beautiful green trees. I run around in tanktops and shorts and get tan lines on my feet from my sandals. When the leaves fall, though, I become introspective, introverted, and quiet. I keep to myself. I hide behind my computer screen, my glasses, my headphones and my homework. I camouflage myself under big thick sweaters and silly headbands. I cry a lot, and wish the sun would come back. I live off of coffee and junk food and the Internet.

Maybe I am two different people. The me during the summer is who I truly feel I am, and the winter person is someone who takes over when the snow comes and the sun goes away, when I hide and wait for the warmth to come.


Sep. 25th, 2009 07:56 pm
purpleparadox: (Escaflowne: wonder)
As she walked down the street
The rain began to fall
He called out, but she passed on by
Like she never noticed him at all

Then the words of a song
Remind her of those days
Sees herself in the face of a stranger
Sat in the station road cafe

She remembers the day
When things were going her way
Only memories remain
Of the way she used to be
The way she used to be

She stay home every night
And exagerates her past
Now he knows the Slimcea Girl
And she lives alone in Prozac Park

All the old photographs
Were never thrown away
She looks through them for what made her cry
Then she decides live for today

She remembers the day
When things were going her way
Only memories remain
Of the way she used to be
The way she used to be

(Why don't you come with me?
I'll come with you!)

The way she used to be
Way she used to be

She'll never go back again
The way she used to be
Way she used to be


This song reminds me of the past, so much, and how my life is going right now.

I always end up listening to music like this in the fall. When the leaves change, it's time to break out the Tori and the more downtempo stuff, and watch the leaves fall and remember.

zoning out

Aug. 28th, 2009 08:18 pm
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Justin sent me a new album to listen to- Supernature by Cerrone. It's one of those albums that I just want to curl up in the dark and listen to while I drift off to it. It's a disco album ("the best disco album ever", Justin says), and I have to admit, I'm enjoying it. I want to light some incense, dim the lights, and drift off, haha.

Student teaching in three days. I'm not sure whether to be excited or utterly terrified. I'll probably spend the next three days slacking off while I can- I work at the computer lab on Sunday night with my friend Kayli, so I might sit around and watch Sailor Moon for five hours, if I can swing it, and work on making scarves.

I think I might just go curl up in bed and zone out for a bit. This album almost makes me wish I'd downloaded it earlier so I could listen to it while I was all woobily on Benadryl. That would have been interesting.
purpleparadox: (MKR: Thinking.)
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I've got this job - I just don't want to sit there all day, going cross eyed staring at forms, and wishing Bryan was home. At least I might get the small blessing of him picking me up on Friday, if the Mint Chocolate Chip Mobile is fixed and someone can get him to it in Watertown.

Oh, if only I could get away with listening to Ayreon at work. I just found out about how some of the albums interconnect (Wikipedia is useful for some things, haha), and it makes me want to sit there and listen to all of them all day. However, I don't think metal will go over well at Financial Aid. Ah well, there's always the walk to campus. I love music that makes me think while it sounds fucking amazing. :D

I managed to crank out five black skirts for the musical we're putting together for Integrating the Arts. We're doing a musical based on the book "Just Plain Fancy", which is about two Amish girls who discover a peacock egg. I think we picked a really difficult book to work with- Amish people don't sing or dance, and we have to have two songs and two dances. O_o Ah well - artistic license is our friend. I just have to get some aprons whipped up sometime before next Tuesday, when our little Amish musical goes on. :D

I should get to bed. It's late, and if I'm up much past 10, no amount of coffee will get me coherent by the time 8 am rolls around and I have to deal with the general public. Oh, I should also remember to go harass Financial Aid about my damn TEACH grant - I have it, but the damn system isn't recognizing the fact that I took the damn entrance interview. If worst comes to worst, I'll just get an emergency disbursement thinger and get some money that way. Urgh. At least come Friday we'll have some money- Bry's getting around $3,000 back.


May. 4th, 2009 05:49 pm
purpleparadox: (homework sucks)
Oh lordy lou I am TIRED.

I have too much to do and too little time to do it in. At least I've noticed that even if what I type up for a pre-student teaching assignment sounds like crap to me, it's probably utterly brilliant. The assignments are scored on a scale of 0-3, and I've only gotten one 2.5 - the rest of my assignments have been 3s.

I'm going to paint my nails and listen to Friendly Fires while I crank out this assessment report paper. I got to see maybe three tests all semester - Mrs. Burnett usually gives them on Fridays, and I'm only there on Mondays.

Friendly Fires is good stuff. I found them on accident, through a yooouuutuuube video Bry showed me. (Yooouuutuuube goes and spits out Youtube videos frame by frame, creating some interesting visual effects. The video for Friendly Fires' Skeleton Boy is sweet, stretched out like that.) I have pretty eclectic tastes, and it makes for some interesting situations when putting my iPod on random. XD

Eh, I guess I better get on that assignment. Maybe I'll crank out some Black Jewels fanfic later if I'm feeling up to it, just to write something that's not educational at all. I can't be a teacher all the time.
purpleparadox: (feeling fannish)
Either that, or it's just that I'm discovering more amazing things about him. Like how he actually LIKES to watch Sailor Moon. Even the dub, which I throw on while I punch embroider so I can listen to what's going on without actually watching. And we watched Interstella 5555 tonight, the anime movie that's set to Daft Punk's Discovery, and he liked it. HE LIKED IT. He doesn't usually like my music- he gets cranky when I put on Spock's Beard ("it's too repetitive!"), and he thinks ELO is annoying, so to find out that I've successfully made him a fan of Daft Punk is awesome. :D

I have to post pictures of the Sailor Moon embroidery I'm working on. It's really detailed and it looks amazing so far.
purpleparadox: (what the hell is this)
[personal profile] phoebesmum  pointed me in the direction of another meme.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions

She gave me the letter B. 

Let's see what I can come up with....

1. Bluebird by Electric Light Orchestra:  This song is one of ELO's more 80s-tastic songs, but it's still so pretty.  I think the song is from the point of view of someone who admires this girl who's having a rough time of things.  He's trapped somehow (job, work, crazy lover, I don't know) and he's telling her that she's free, she should fly away from her difficult life and start anew.

2. Between the Lines by Bonobo: It's a good song to zone out to.  I like Bonobo.  They're good for listening to when I wander around town during the summer, aimlessly walking for lack of anything better to do.

3. Beautiful Life by Ace of Base:  Man, I've loved this song for ages.  I even remember the first time I heard it, too- on the bus home from 8th grade one day.  I remember hearing it on the radio and thinking about how awesome it sounded, and how much it sounded like Ace of Base, and then the DJ said it was Ace of Base, and I ran home and made my mom get the CD for me. XD

4. Beyond this Life by Dream Theater:  I haven't listened to this song, or the album it's from, in ages.  Scenes from a Memory, the album this song is from, is meant to be listened to all at once.  It's so weird when one of the songs comes up randomly on my playlist, I get so into the song and then something entirely different comes on next instead of the next song on the CD.  It gets disorienting.  :P

5. Baba O'Riley by The Who: I like this song.  I don't know why.  Maybe because it's the opening theme for one of the CSIs out there, can't remember which.  Maybe because I like to sing it.  Maybe it's the synthesizer part in the beginning.  I have no clue.  


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